“Darling You’ll Be Okay” Words I never thought I would believe until I actually heard them in person. Pierce The Veil ” Hold On Til May”

The last 2 and a half years have been a rough patch for me. (Many of you may know if you have read my previous blog posts) I never thought I would actually be okay again. Even though I had my music and my fake smile and everything else I really didn’t want to do anything anymore. When Pierce The Veil came out with their latest album Collide With The Sky in 2012 it was when I started to become depressed but nothing got super bad until 2013 when the cutting began. The song Hold on Till May was instantly my favorite song on the album. The song is about a girl who basically didn’t have anybody pay attention to her. This song I could relate to because I started shutting myself out to my friends and family but yet they didn’t really notice much. When my self harm phases started I thought that was it for me. I couldn’t do anything except feeling sorry for myself and everything else. When i heard this song I was in love from the very opening chord of the song. Towards the end of the song there is this one part that goes ” If I were you Id put that away, see your just wasted and thinking about the past again. Darling you’ll be okay” Those last four words lingered with me and I honestly didn’t believe that I could ever be okay but I tried to hold on to my faith. On November 21st 2014 one of my dreams came true. Along with one of my other favorite bands I got to see Pierce The Veil live in Albany. The show was amazing! Pierce The Veil was the last band to perform and I couldn’t have been more excited. As they played through their set I sang along to every song and I felt my emotions stirring. But I kept hoping they played that song. Just about almost to the end of their set the lights went dark and then I heard that opening chord. As the crowd went crazy I mean I did too I felt my heart pounding. As Vic started singing we all sang with him. Hearing the song on my iPod to hearing it live are two different experiences. I literally started crying when he was singing it live. When it got to the part where he sang “Darling you’ll be okay” I was on the floor during the show pretty close to the stage and I swear Vic was looking at me when he said those words. I started balling my eyes out because I knew then I was going to be okay. I was okay. I had been 1 month clean from self harm at that time. Hearing those words live from one of my idols one of the bands that helped me get through my nightmare was one of the most moving and emotional moments for me. Im sure a lot of people who don’t know my story would just think I am some over obsessing fan girl ( like my parents for example) but really there was more to it. If I ever see Pierce The Veil live again which I know I will but I hope they always play that song because those words will captivate everybody! Before Vic sings Hold On Til May and other songs he gives some of the best little speeches ever and it moves me almost to tears. Everytime I watch the the song Live on Youtube I cry almost every single time. It moves me and I really feel like Im there all over again. Even if you are not a follower of this type of music look up this song because it is beautiful.

“Hold On Till May”
(feat. Lindsey Stamey)

She sits up high, surrounded by the sun
One million branches and she loves every one
“Mom and dad, did you search for me?
I’ve been up here so long I’m going crazy!”

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

Now don’t be crazy
Yes now of course you can stay here.
Been in a touring band for going on ten years.
“Big deal,” she said, “I guess you’re official.”
I only said it ’cause I know what it’s like to feel burned out

It gets you down,
We’ve all been there sometimes
But tonight I’ll make you feel beautiful once again

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
3-2-1 where did it go?

If I were you I’d put that away
See, you’re just wasted
And thinking ’bout the past again
Darling, you’ll be okay

And she said,

[Lindsey:]
“If you were me, you’d do the same
‘Cause I can’t take anymore
I’ll draw the shades and close the door
Everything’s not alright and I would rather…”

And as the sun went down we ended up on the ground
I heard the train shake the windows
You screamed over the sound (over the sound)
And as we own this night
I put your body to the test with mine
This love was out of control
Tell me where did it go?

April 30, 2015 by Elizabeth Maier

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life) : Green Day

Green Day got inducted into the Rock N Roll Hall of Fame this past weekend so I thought it would be appropriate to do another Green Day song. I started listening to this band for 11 years. I heard this song for the first time when I was in 3rd grade and I bought the American Idiot Album and the rest of that is history for me. Yet Green Day is still one of the bands I still haven’t seen live. I saw their broadway show American Idiot in New York City 4 years ago and it was an amazing performance. The song Good Riddance Time of Your Life is one of those songs that really does make you reflect upon your life and shows you that life is short and everything flies by really quickly.

When I was a senior in high school I couldn’t believe that three years went by so quickly and by the time graduation hit, it hit me.  During my senior year I realized that this was the turning point. All of us would be going away to college and starting new chapters with new friends and maybe finding the one we will marry. So during that year I got some friendships back in line. I learned about myself that year and I didn’t figure out before. I had two teachers who were special to me and helped me through  a lot in the course of those 4 years.

Every year I took a whole bunch of pictures. Every homecoming and halloween. Random days i took pictures and then when prom and ball came around there were a whole bunch of pictures. In a course of 4 years there were so many great memories good and bad. Tempus Fuget – Latin for Time Flies. And that is exactly what had happened. Everything that happened was worth every minute and a lot was all over in a course of four years. You say that you will stay in contact with your “crew” but in my experience I have barely have had any contact with my of my friends from high school. The future is unpredictable where we will end up, who our friends are going to be. This song has taught me to live life to the fullest, talk to everybody I meet and never take anything for granted.

Good Riddance (Time of Your Life)
Song by Green Day
Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test and don’t ask why
It’s not a question but a lesson learned in time
It’s something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

So take the photographs and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it’s worth, it was worth all the while
It’s something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
It’s something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life
It’s something unpredictable but in the end is right
I hope you had the time of your life

April 20, 2015 by Elizabeth Maier