What do I look up to? What do I look forward to? Who do I chase?

I did not watch the Oscars but on faceboook I saw an acceptance speech by Matthew McConaughey and it was rather meaningful and beautiful. It was not just a regular speech like the same old acceptance speeches you hear. The 3 goals he strives for everyday go as followed. 1. What do I look up to? 2. What do I look forward to? 3. Who do I chase? As I am watching this video I am thinking to myself going now these are good prompts to think about each day, to strive to become better. So I have put some thought into it and I am going to answer these 3 questions myself. 

Who Do I Look Up To?

When I think of things that I look up to there comes a short list. My family for one. My family always has my back,in good times and in bad. My family is my support system and without family I would be alone. My boyfriend who is also very important to me, I look up to him. Like my family he won’t let me give up either and wants to see me succeed as well. I look to him when I need something when I am struggling and I can’t go to anybody else. I love him. I look up to my head nurses who help me become a better aide. I look up to them and my coworkers to help me accomplish new challenges at work. I look up to certain people I admire in the music world and hollywood scene because sometimes they understand what I thought nobody else did in my darkest times. And if I ever meet any of them, I want to thank them for that one day. But Most Importantly I want to thank everyone who has entered my life and for being here for me and a role model to me and giving me a reason to look up to them as someone to help me in my path of life. 

What Do I Look Forward To?

Being only 20 there is a lot of life I have to look forward to. Right now there are many things I have been dreaming about. I will start with I am looking forward to the day when my boyfriend gets down on one knee and asks me to be his wife. I dream about that almost nightly. But I feel like that is any girls dream for that matter. Secondly I look forward to one day getting out of my house and into an apartment with my boyfriend. I look forward to decorating for every holiday and cooking marvelous dinners once I learn to cook. Ha Ha. I look forward to my wedding day and honeymoon, and starting a family. But daily things I look forward to are my “Good morning beautiful” text messages. Morning cuddles with my dog. Coffee with my mom in the mornings. I look forward to coming home after work and talking to Nick on the phone until I fall asleep. Coming home to a comfy bed after a long night at work. I look forward to family time and dinners. I have many things in life to look forward too. 

Who Do I Chase?

This was one of my favorite parts of Matthew McConaughey’s speech. He was asked by someone who was his hero. He said his hero was himself in 10 years and that is the person he chases. I really like that aspect and vision. Given this some thought I feel that I don’t know who I am chasing but I am going after a big goal. I am starting school in the fall. SO I am figuring out that I will be chasing after myself to do well. To study hard and strive for B’s or better. Im starting school to start my pre recs to apply for the Nursing Program. After being at my current job for 7 months, I realized I want to go for my RN. I am chasing my dream and I am not going to stop until I make it. It might take me a while to get there but I am promising myself that I will not stop. First step is to get an Associates Degree in Science and then I will be able to apply for the Nursing Program. Everyday I am going to tell myself that I can do this. Slowly but surely I am going to make it one class at a time.  

March 2, 2017 by Elizabeth Maier

Fallen Angel Fan Fic Chapter 9: Im Low on Gas and You Need a Jacket.

Jens Pov

Alex welcomes the crowd and introduces the guys. The band starts out with the song Jasey and leads into Baltimore. I am having a blast because I never would of guessed I would be watching this side stage. I am in a daze. “Wendy run away with me, I know it sounds crazy but its what you do to me.” Alex trails off singing. This song is my life coming true, I am actually running away with these guys my own super heroes. Alex plays more of my favorite songs and then he leads into another talk of how amazing the fans are and stuff. He leads into saying here is the last song Remembering Sunday. And all of a sudden Alex runs off stage for a moment and he is coming right towards me  and hands me a mic. I look at him and go “um whats this for?” Alex smiles at me and goes “you are going to sing the girl part at the end of the song” I am like “no no no I’m good I don’t need to be in the spot light.” Alex looks at me and goes “you’re on in 3 minutes.” Ok relax try not to freak out?! Next thing I know I hear the part leading into my cue I take a deep breath “here goes nothing…” I mumble under my breath. I walk out and sing my best “Im out of my mind can’t keep an eye on the world…” Alex finishes his part and we end the song. Everyone is going crazy. For all they know Im just the random chick back up singer. “Give it up for Jen everybody!” Alex Shouts and I wave embarrassed as ever. I run off stage and Im beat red and shaking oh no panic attack?!! Why am I freaking out though? I went on stage no problem. Im in the corner freaking out and trying to let this pass quickly. Andy runs over to me and is just beaming at me. “You were amazing they just loved you!” I look at him and I just have tears in my face and look like a hot mess. “Hey hey its ok why are you upset you were great. Why so sad?” Ok  how do you tell your idol that this is normal and you are just having an anxiety attack? One answer, you don’t but they will find out the truth anyways. “Do you need a minute? I understand. ” I nodded and told him to just give me a little space and I will regroup in a minute.

I collected myself and regrouped. I walk back to the side of the main stage and Vic from Pierce the Veil was getting his ear piece in and they were about to head off onto the stage. These guys are amazing! “Have a good show!” I waved and they smiled at me. What I really love most about their music is Vic writes the songs and they all have a personal touch to them. Im hooked on every word. Vic went through self harm and a lot of his songs tell his battle of it in the story of song. Dealing with it is one battle and then recovering from it is another one. Vic started playing one of my favorite songs, Bulletproof Love off the Selfish Machines album. When I was going through my break up with Jake this was my theme song especially the part in the bridge “This isn’t fair! Don’t you try to blame this on me! My love for you was bulletproof but your the one who shot me” I put up with a  lot of jakes crap and his cheating and gave up and broke up. I was singing along to every word. They finished their set and went back out for an encore and played my other favorite song, Hold On Till May. Crap I’m going to be in tears by the end of this song. I went right to the side of the stage where I was practically visible off stage balling my eyes out. “You’re just wasted and thinking bout the past again, Darling you’ll be okay.” I lost it and Vic came over to me while Jaime and Tony played their guitar solos and he hugged me and put his arm around me and he finished the song with him supporting me. It was so I don’t know how to describe it. How about sweet? Maybe thats the right way to describe it. I smiled and walked off stage with Vic and the guys.

Austin’s POV

Vic and the guys just came off stage after doing another kick ass show. I watch Jen, she looks lost. She’s beat red and has a tear stained face. I see her pick up a guitar and goes back out onto the stage and sits down. She is playing Wake me up When September Ends by Green Day. She is good. Real good. As I was watching her I was getting choked up. This girl has given herself all of these scars in just 9 months. Damn that is crazy shit. It reminds me when we met Rose, Jaime’s wife, same kind of story same kind of situation. Rose is home with their new born baby girl Emily. I walk over to Jen, “so who taught you to play guitar?” Almost startled she looks at me and smiles and then blushes and goes “I self taught” Man thats amazing I can sing but thats about it. “Same with the singing it comes naturally” She added. “well I think the tour gained a new performer, or maybe a few selected bands anyways” I smiled and nudged her  a bit. I really hope she stays and I hope she will now be happy. “Lets go grab a bite to eat.” and we head off to find some food.

February 25, 2017 by Elizabeth Maier

Hard not to get attached. CNA tales

Many of you know that my new path in life is that I am a certified nurses assistant (CNA). I love my job. But after this past week, I never really knew how much the job would take certain affects on me. Here is a  little story on what I do daily at work.

Many people have been in to see someone at a hospital or a nursing home and see the aids running around. We help people with their basic daily needs whether it is bringing them to the bathroom or helping them brush their teeth. And other ADL’s. What the second most important part of the job to me is getting to know my residents and hearing about their stories of growing up or what they did when they were my age. Most stories are pretty amazing. Many of the men where in the wars anywhere between WWII, Vietnam. And most of the women were all nurses, or didn’t work and stayed home and took care of the kids. Getting to know my residents puts a smile on your face when you can laugh and bring a smile to their face. One of the other great parts of my job is that not only do you get to know your residents, but you also get to know their family too. 

This past week at work one gentleman was sent to the hospital unexpectedly and was coming back for hospice care. This was a shock for my coworkers and I. He was fine just the other day. Now Ive been at my job for 6 months now which is hard to believe already. This gentleman was a family friend of my grandparents and his son does business with my dad and uncle. Getting to know this gentleman was important to me  when he first came to the nursing home I work at. Getting to know this gentleman was wonderful, after I told him who I was he remembered me. This man would tell me a few things about my grandparents stories that I hadn’t heard from my own family. The best part of all is that I was told by him and by many others the same thing, My grandfather had the best smile. And this man told me I had a smile just like him. And getting to know his kids was great.

Saturday when he returned from the hospital, I was there to help with the assistance to help transfer him into the bed. This was the first time that I have felt an emotional touch to my job. Other people have passed but I hadn’t had time to get to know them that much and it didn’t really affect me. While I was in the room with my coworker and the family I could feel my eyes getting watery and my nose sniffeling. I was sad. After the transfer was complete my coworker left the room and I just stood there for  a moment. I looked at his daughter and I hugged her and as she cried I couldn’t help but let the tears go myself. The family thanked me for everything that I did for them and for him, and told me that I was his favorite. Which made me tear up again. I had to get out of the room and recollect myself and get ready to start my shift. Monday the Lord called him home. 

This is the hardest part about my job. The part I don’t understand is why do the employers at my job tell us not to get attached? I mean, how can you not get attached to the people that you care for and help them with everything. Hold their hands or visit with them when they don’t get visitors. I believe they tell us not to get attached because they are there for life until the end. And we need to understand that the people are going to pass away. But I look at it this way, if we didn’t become attached and just said Im here to do my job and get paid then we would look like jerks. But if we say Im here to do my job and to enjoy my time with my residents while doing my job that would look like care and also caring too much and becoming attached? But they want us to give the best care. It is rather confusing. Just like they say don’t pick favorites, but you secretly do. This job is hard on the body, the mind, and most importantly the heart. And after this past week I have officially decided that I am going to go back to school and go for my RN. I don’t want to be in this type of position for the rest of my life. I care about my residents and now to see anyone pass will be a different experience than a few months ago. Getting my RN will bring bigger and brighter things and to chose a field in the Hospital where I know most of my patients will be able to go home 🙂

 

 

February 8, 2017 by Elizabeth Maier

“Hold on Tight. This Ride is A Wild One” My new theme song to help get me through my tough days. Song “Missing You” By All Time Low

I would like to share a new lyrics and meaning blog with all of you. The song “Missing You” by ALL TIME LOW kind of describes a lot of what I have been feeling this year. I have had this song on my playlist for a while but now I take a whole new meaning on it. It brings out all that I have felt in the past and how much I can relate to this song. 

 

1 I heard that you’ve been
Self-medicating in the quiet of your room,
Your sweet, suburban tomb.
And if you need a friend,
I’ll help you stitch up your wounds.

I heard that you’ve been
Having some trouble finding your place in the world.
I know how much that hurts,
But if you need a friend
Then please just say the word…

You’ve come this far,
You’re all cleaned up,
You’ve made a mess again,
There’s no more trying,
Time to sort yourself out…

Hold on tight,
This ride is a wild one,
Make no mistake,
The day will come when you can’t cover up what you’ve done,
Now don’t lose your fight, kid,
It only takes a little push to pull on through,
With so much left to do;
You’ll be missing out, and we’ll be missing you.

2 I heard that you’ve been
Having some trouble finding your place in the world.
I know how much that hurts,
And if you need a friend
Then please just say the word…

You’ve come this far,
You’re all cleaned up,
You’ve made a mess again,
There’s no more trying,
Time to sort yourself out…

Hold on tight,
This ride is a wild one,
Make no mistake,
The day will come when you can’t cover up what you’ve done,
Now don’t lose your fight, kid,
It only takes a little push to pull on through,
With so much left to do;
You’ll be missing out, and we’ll be missing you.

bridge: Grit your teeth, pull your hair,
Paint the walls black and scream, “Fuck the world
‘Cause it’s my life, I’m gonna take it back,”
And never for a second blame yourself.

Hold on tight,
This ride is a wild one,
Make no mistake,
The day will come when you can’t cover up what you’ve done,
(no, you can’t cover up)
(one, two, three, four!)

Hold on tight,
This ride is a wild one (this ride is a wild one),
Make no mistake,
The day will come when you can’t cover up what you’ve done,
Now don’t lose your fight, kid (don’t lose your fight, kid),
It only takes a little push to pull on through (push to pull on through),
With so much left to do;
You’ll be missing out, and we’ll be missing you

The first verse comes out and says ‘I heard that you’ve been self medicating in the quiet of your room.” I did this. I still do sometime. It means coping on your own trying to make things better yourself and without help. I never wanted to be bothered. I have been trying to find out where my place in the world is. And after struggles and other hard ships I figured it out. But I need more than just a friend to stitch up my wounds. I need a tattoo artist to stitch up my wounds. That and yes the THAT is referring to self harming that “self medicating”. For other people it could be something else. But self harm is my vice. I came so far and was doing fine. Then I made a big mess and needed to sort myself out. 

Sorting myself out has been the hardest task I’ve had to do the last  year or so when I knew school was not going to work out. I made the mess by just lying my way through the whole entire situation. Which made a bigger mess. I self medicated by hurting myself. Sorting myself out gave me a whole bunch of options before all truths came out. I thought about ending my life. I thought about running away and never turning back. After truths came out, I began a new sort of figuring myself out. I needed a job. I found it. Im a Certified Nurses Assistant. Now my new founding career is leading me into a direction where I think I want to go to nursing school. But how am I going to pay for it? How will I be able to get through it? Am I really smart enough for it? Is nursing what I want to do just because I am working at a nursing home? This career that I am in has opened up new visions for me. Im trying to sort this all out. HELP! 

The sorting my life out is what brings me to the lyrics in the bridge “Grit you teeth pull your hair paint the walls black and scream fuck the world cuz its my life Im gonna take it back and never for a second blame myself”. Life is a stressful situation. Growing up is a stressful situation. Trying to figure out who you want to be verses what you want to be when you grow up is a hard choice to make. I really don’t think anybody really knows what they want to do when they turn 18 and graduate high school. We are faced with the situations where you want to scream and when things do not go your way you really just want to say fuck it all. And it makes you either want to give up and quit or makes you more determined to dominate all and take charge and live up to what you want to do and not let anyone tell you otherwise. We are ready to face whatever comes our way. 

 

And now the chorus. 

Hold on tight,
This ride is a wild one,
Make no mistake,
The day will come when you can’t cover up what you’ve done,
Now don’t lose your fight, kid,
It only takes a little push to pull on through,
With so much left to do;
You’ll be missing out, and we’ll be missing you.

Life is a wild ride and we have no idea what is going to happen. I wish I could have held on tight to 18 and maybe I would have been on the better path then. I made enough mistakes where I couldn’t cover them up. I felt like I lost my fight, but I got a big push in a new direction and have pulled on through. I am only 20. There is so much left and so much more than I can achieve, conquer and fight for. I was close to missing out. I was close to being missed. But new changes helped save my life along with support to keep pushing me through. 

 

And I want to put out there, if any band members of All Time Low see this post. Thank you for your music. Thank you for all your inspiration to help keep me going. And thank you for understanding how a lot of us in these situations feel.

 

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Missing You by All Time Low

January 13, 2017 by Elizabeth Maier

20/21 Is not too young to get engaged

All parents want what is best for thier children. So I have heard. I am technically not a child anymore but to my parents I am. I am 20 years old and want to stop being bossed around by my parents. But as I am progressing through my journey in life, they are not just bossing me around. They want me to become successful and want only what is best for me. Yet there are some things though I think they should ease up on a little bit. 

In my parents eyes I should have graduated from MCC in May and should currently be on Winter break from my next school. Instead I am living at home working full time at a nursing home as a certified nurses assistant and happier than ever. In my parents eyes I feel as if I am a failure and the fact I let them down big time. As the months have moved pass I see it more and more. I know I have made them proud with getting my CNA and showing them that I have not just given up on everything. They know that this is a start to something but will take a while before I say to myself I am ready. I need my own time to still figure out what my path in life really is. Maybe I will settle for nursing in a few years.Right now I still need to figure that out. I am only 20 and have plenty of time to go back. A lot of people say that once you stop going to school you never go back. I want to prove that statement false. But for me not anyone else.

The most important part of the statement above is the fact that I am happier now than I have been in a long time. I am still facing some hardships that I want my parents to accept and understand.
There are decisions that are mine to make and that even if they don’t want me to agree now that it isn’t there choice and my happiness should come first. My boyfriend Nick and I have been together for 2 years and 3 months. Things have started getting more serious and we have had a few talks about marriage and also getting engaged. My mother and father are having a fit about the whole thing. They say that I am too young to get engaged too young to think about marriage. In todays day and age, more couples are getting engaged and married younger compared to 31 years ago. I don’t like hearing that my parents won’t be happy for me if I got engaged right now. I want them to be happy. But I want them to understand that it is my decision to say YES. Even if I get engaged sometime in 2017, Im not saying I DO until 2019. I want to do everything right and so does my boyfriend. He wants to ask my parents for permission for my hand. We are going to get married in the Catholic Church. 

My parents do want what is best for me and want me to be happy. So they are going to have to come around when the day comes when Nick get’s down on one knee. And they will be happy for me even if they think it is too early. If I am happy I think they should be too. In their eyes I should be finishing up a 4 year degree. But they didn’t see how unhappy school was making me. They didn’t see what the stress and low grades did to me. They couldn’t see that I was actually unhappy. Now with this new job I actually am happy. And with Nick I am happy. When it all comes down to it, I am their little girl, only child, and they don’t want to loose me, they don’t want to see me grow up. My dad isn’t ready to walk his baby down the isle yet. But they know that the time is coming soon, and that they are trying to get as much time with me still at home as possible. I’m not going to go far and Its not like I am leaving for good. 

Carrie Underwood says in Mama’s Song “Mama theres no way you’ll ever loose me. Giving me away is not goodbye as you watch me walk down to my future I hope there are tears of joy in your eyes”.

My parents were 25  and 24 when they got married. My mom says that if she was able to do it all over again when her and my dad got married she says she would have wanted to be older and thought 25 was still really young. But say I get engaged at 20/21 and wait until 2019 to plan everything and to get everything that I want, by 2019 I will be 23. I want enough time to plan and save up for everything that we want and I feel that this actually the smart way to do it instead of stress in one year.

Do I feel like that I am ready to be engaged?

Actually yes I do.

Do I think that getting engaged at 20/21 is too young?

No I don’t. A lot of couples are getting engaged younger and married younger.

Will my family be happy for me if I get engaged?

Now I think it could go either way. I have 2 cousins who are twins and older than I am who are 33 and not married. I have heard my aunts say they don’t want to see me settling down so early. My parents may not be happy now but will probably be when it actually happens. I am pretty sure my grandparents will be. It is hard to say to be honest. I wish for happiness and the best reaction when I announce that I am engaged. I know Nicks family will be excited for us. And our friends. I guess I will find out sooner or later.

Now if I actually have people that occasionally read my blog, and if you are married or engaged, I would love for some feedback on this blog and your own opinions. How old were you when you were engaged/married? Is 20/21 too young in your opinion? If you were this young were people happy for you?

 

Thanks in Advance! Happy Blogging!

 

 

 

January 6, 2017January 10, 2017 by Elizabeth Maier

Enough Clowning Around!

October 1st is here, the fall weather is here! The smells sights and tastes of fall is here. But instead of people getting excited for things people are  a little more concerned. Within the last month and continuing up until now there have been creepy clown sightings and reports of creepy clowns trying to lure kids with candy and other clowns taking women into the woods and raping them. This is so not right. The only reason that you should have to dress us as a clown are 2 simple things.

1. You work in a haunted house, corn maze, haunted hayride, or any type of horror attraction job. 

2. It is your halloween costume.

The number one fear of most people is the fear of clowns.

Coulrophobia: The fear of Clowns 

What I believe is that the top two fears at any haunted attractions for mostly anybody are 1)Clowns & 2)Chainsaws.

I volunteer at a Haunted Hayride and if anybody actually reads this and is familiar with Rochester NY, I volunteer at The Haunted Hayrides of Greater Rochester out on the DeFisher Farm in Williamson NY. This is my 3rd year as a haunter and my very first year I chose a clown mask for my haunting character. I have stuck with a clown for the first two years. This year on the other hand I questioned whether or not to stick with my clown attire. Last night was opening night for us and our head person in charge gave a big talk about the whole clown thing going on. She was going to continue to have clowns on the trail and in the Screamatorium and also haunting the crowd, but if anyone saw a “clown” that did not belong to report to any of the securities asap. 

My position as a clown I can crowd haunt which is my absolute favorite thing in the world to do. I have a creepy head turn thing that I do and walk real slow towards someone and they run away and scream and i start to go after them too. Or I go out on the trail and there are spotlights and I stand where the light illuminates my mask just right and when the wagon goes by people think that i am fake and then i move and chase the wagon. Last night I did a lot of the “PENNY WISE THE CLOWN” imitations from STEPHEN KING’s the movie IT. Everything I did got a thrill of terror out of everyone I engaged with. 

 

So to anyone who is dressing up this Halloween be safe and maybe stray away from the clown costumes this year. And like they are saying on the news if you see any creepy clowns in your area, to report to police right away.

October 2, 2016October 2, 2016 by Elizabeth Maier

How many movies can you make about a shark that terrorizes and eats people?

It all started with JAWS! The first classic shark horror classic film. I am only 20 but Jaws was one of the first “scary movies” that I have ever seen unfortunately at a young age. And ever since seeing it I have vowed to never go in the ocean. But seriously how many movies do we need about killer sharks? The graphics get better but get more gory. Jaws was pretty much mediocre. But movies today all there is blood and guts. I believe one movie is enough, who really needs more than one movie for the same type of story line. Killer Shark, eats people, only a few survivors, THE END.

The Jaws movies have 4 movies.There is JAWS. JAWS 2. JAWS 3. JAWS THE REVENGE. Now this is my theory, in every movie they have the climax ending where pretty much everyone dies and the lone few survivors kill the damn thing. But I think that these sharks have their shark families and they tell them all that they do and the next shark of that family is the shark for the next movie. Because how does a shark know that these people have a history of shark attacks over and over again? Obviously the real answer to the sequels is Steven Spielburg. 

All the JAWS movies are great the first one is the best by far. What I have noticed is in each movie the shark somehow gets a little bit bigger and harder to kill. What I also found interesting is the fact that there were people in the robot sharks that actually controlled it. I never knew that until just recently! That had to have been the best job ever. To play the shark in the JAWS movies. 

Secondly, who honestly let Sharknado become a thing? And to let 2 more movies after that? Those movies were pretty bad. The first one was interesting but hokey and pretty bad even with the graphics that JAWS had better graphics than Sharknado. Sharknado was so bad that I watched the other 2 movies and they were just as bad if not worse. I understand they whole syfy thing too keep the excitement going but kind of hokey. I do believe 3 movies were enough and they made their money and on to try better ideas. 

One movie review on another of my favorites, DEEP BLUE SEA. I found this film rather terrifying, suspenseful, and once again another reason to never swim in the ocean or to study marine biology. Now this shark is HUGE!!! And I think all these scientists are crazy to capture the shark in the first place. I mean have a little common sense. Do you think its normal to capture a Great White Shark under water while you are still underwater yourself? UM…NO! And spoiler ….Why did they have to kill Sammuel Jackson? One of the most well known actors in the film and they have to kill him especially in the greatest speech in the whole movie?! That part made me jump like an idiot but still! Nobody saw that coming. Well…I guess thats the point in these shark movies. Atleast in JAWS you knew the shark was near when that minor chord starts playing. Sometimes in these other movies you get a feeling that the shark is near by but then sometimes you trick yourself out. 

A few honorable mentions to this blog post 

The Shallows

Bruce from Finding Nemo

Shark Tale

3 Headed Shark Attack

Terror

 

 

September 14, 2016 by Elizabeth Maier

Pumpkin Spice or Apple Cider?

I know this is different from all my other blog posts but I thought this was a topic up for debate. Even though we are still in summer, the first official day of fall is September 21st. As soon as September 1st hits there is no more talk of summer margaritas but the talk of Apple Cider and Pumpkin Spice. 

We have just reached the start of fall! The smell of straw bales, squash starting to come into season! Yes we are still in the 90 degree weather up here in Upstate New York the cooler weather will be here shortly! Time for haunted houses and haunted hayrides, scary movie marathons, warm sweaters, and fall fashion! Sit in front of the TV on a rainy fall day with Hot Apple Cider, a Pumpkin Spiced latte, or any other drink of your liking! I would like to know your favorite fall drink and your opinion too! Leave in the Comments below. And of course, HAPPY FALL!!!!!!

Now my own pick for this battle is Apple Cider. I love the smell of fresh apples and the sweet and tart taste when you bite into one. Apple Cider is plain and simple and goes nicely with a fried cake. Apple Cider is not over powering with sweetness and doesn’t make your teeth hurt. I like the smell of the pumpkin spice and the smells of the pumpkin treats, but I do not like the taste of pumpkin. 

My mom on the other hand picks pumpkin spice. To me what is it with women and their pumpkin spice lattes. I am a girl myself but I guess I just don’t get it. My mom will treat herself to a pumpkin spice once in a great while. Id say another battle would be Starbucks vs Dunkin with who has the best latte!? My mom and I could answer that too, and its Starbucks. You might pay a little more for it but the taste is a lot better. 

September 9, 2016 by Elizabeth Maier

Fallen Angel Fan Fiction Chapters 7&8

Chapter 7 Kellic

Jen’s POV 

Andy and I find our way past screaming fans to the back of the main stage. Oliver opens with “Chelsea’s Smile” and then goes right into new hit single “Drown”. As the set goes on all of a sudden I heard a voice say “Hey! how much did we miss?” I turned around and I am daring into the eyes of Kellin Quinn of Sleeping With Sirens and Vic Fuentes of Pierce the Veil. I just stared there with my mouth open and the biggest dorky smile on my face while just trying to keep my cool. “This is Jen” Andy introduced me to the guys. “yeah…Im Jen…sorry I’m being such a fan girl I just really like both of your bands.” I said feeling my face turn scarlet again. Then they all went quiet and watched Oli scream “We will never sleep because sleepings for the weak and we will never rest till we’re all fucking dead”! Hearing the crowd chant it back must feel pretty awesome to them knowing how much the music impacts every fans life. And then the stage went dark even though it was still pretty bright outside, I could tell they did a black out on the set. The intro music for “Shadow Moses” starts and you can hear the crowd going nuts! “Can you tell from the look in our eyes”? and the crowd sings back “we’re going nowhere”! “We live our lives and we’re ready to die!” Next thing I know Oli has run off stage right as the heavy guitar solos kick in and grabs me and brings me on stage with him. “This is my neew friend Jen!” Oli screams “After this tour you all are going to know her name! Thats right.” Oli whispers into my ear and Im going no way no way. But with encouragement here we go. I take the mic and start singing “Can you tell from the look in our eyes?”! The crowd was going crazy as I sang every line and the guitars went wild. Then came my favorite part where we all yelled “THIS IS SEPTITERNAL!”

Andy’s POV

Man she has some talent I am thinking to myself as I watch Jen having the time of her life on stage with Oli. She is beautiful , and then Im busted. “Andy?…Andy? Hey lover boy!” “What? oh hey what do you I want Im busy?” I replied to Vic. Apparently he was trying to get my attention. “Why is she hanging out with you guys? Shouldn’t she be with her friends in the crowd?” Vic asked. I told him what I told Austin and Oliver. “She is a fallen angel and I want to help her turn her life around. And now that we know she can sing, Jen is definitely not going anywhere, besides she doesn’t have a place to go back to.” I said. Man she can sing! I just can not get over that. “Well man as along as you are happy. I can see that you are already falling for her.” Kellin said and fake punched me in the arm. She is beautiful behind all those scars and I am going to help her see it. I was thinking to myself and the song ended and the crowd was screaming and cheering and Jen was beaming from ear to ear waving at everybody that she could. She took one final bow and one final wave and I watched her run off stage and I was waiting for her with my arms open wide. 

Jen’s POV

As the song ended my whole body was shaking. I waved to everyone and bowed and ran off stage right into Andy’s awaiting hug. “I can’t believe I just did that!” I squealed! “You were amazing!” Andy said and I noticed his cheeks flush a little red. Vic walked up to me and said “Hey Jen can I talk to you for a minute?” “Yeah sure.” Oh my Vic wants to talk to me?! I walk over trying to act all casual. “I was wondering if you would like to join me on our set today when I sing “Hold On Till May” and I think you would be a really great fit for the song for us.” My eyes lit up and slightly filled with tears and I smiled. “I would love to! You really don’t know how much that song means to me. That song gives me hope to try to hang in there for just another year longer. Of course I would love to join you!” Vic gave me a big hug and told me everything is going to work out and that after today I will never have to worry about holding on till next May and that from here on out my life is going to get better.  As I am trying to pull myself back together others from the bands are coming up to me to congratulate me on my performance. “Man you have got some lung power!” Exclaimed Oliver who still seemed out of breath. “Hey guys I got a text from Alex that said whoever wants to meet him and Jack inside the theme park and chill out and escape the fans for a bit to meet them inside. “ALEX AND JACK FROM ALL TIME LOW!!!!!?” I said all excited and they all nodded yes. I still can’t believe this is actually happening, I am still waiting to wake up from this crazy dream. Vic and Kellin skip off together holding hands. “Oh shit!” I said laughing. “What’s wrong?” Andy asked me. “Kellic is real?” I said and couldn’t stop laughing. “Come on! Laughed Andy, we all have band member “Shipped” relationships.  After that remark we made our way to the theme park entrance and I started to get to know the guys. I felt so special and I felt like I didn’t deserve all this attention but I just went along with it. Just because I know it will be all over by the end of the day and tomorrow I will just be some girl to them. 

 

 

Chapter 8: Weightless

“Ok its time to have some fun!” Yells Vic, as the guys figure out what they all want to ride and what they want to go on first I just stood there and laughed as they kind of argued. “How about the Man of Steel?” shouted Oliver. The guys were silent “Unless you sissies can’t handle it!” Oli continued and I laughed because Vic looked a little uneasy. When we reached the Man of Steel Jack and Alex were waiting for us. “Wow you are the girl with the beautiful eyes” Alex said to me. I smiled and could not believe it! “You remembered me?” “I would remember those eyes anywhere” Alex said back to me. It was a few years ago I saw All Time Low in concert and won passes to go to their meet and greet and Alex told me that day that I had beautiful eyes. 

The line was getting super long and in the passing time the guys took a few pictures with some fans who couldn’t go to warped. While we were in line Andy asks me “Do you have your passport?” I nodded my head yes. I brought it just because and so I can get out of here whether it is by hitch hiking or whatever. “Just making sure incase we go out of the country on tour we won’t have to worry about getting you one.” Andy explained to me. Going on tour? Is he saying what I think he’s saying? “Why are you taking me in like this?”I asked Andy no kind of feeling like I am just going to be extra baggage for them. Andy looked at me and said “We want to help you get a better life and you showed us that you are freaking talented and we need to get that amazing voice in the studio. Now throughout the rest of the tour different bands are interested in you singing with them, me especially.” I looked at Andy and just leaned in and gave him a giant hug. We have finally gotten to the gates to get on the coaster. I notice that Austin is skipping out on this one. “aren’t you coming on?” I asked him. “You know how I have issues with my heart?” I nodded yes “Well I have to be careful with what kind of things I do to help it from not triggering it” Austin said. “Have fun on this one I heard that Andy hates roller coasters so be sure to hold his had” He laughs and goes to find a spot to sit down. The coaster cars pull up. Kellin and Oliver in the front car, Jack and Alex behind and then Andy and I. Following behind us Vic and Mike and then Tony, and Jaime!. The cars take off and we start going up the 400ft 90 degree slope. I am kind of freaking out a little bit. I can do coasters but this one might be a little extreme! And next thing I know we are flying down the hill. In about 45 seconds the ride was all over with. “I waited 45 minutes in line for a 30 second ride?” Vic complained. “Time for bumper cars!” Yelled Andy. “Told ya so” Austin said to me with a smirk on his face. 

We made our way to the bumper cars and Vic came up to me and said “Man you can scream and sing! What else can you do that we don’t know about?” I blushed and smiled and just tried to shrug it off. “Just one question though, why are all of you guys interested in having me on tour? I mean there are plenty of other fans with scars and stories like me out in these crowds. What is so special about me?” I ask Vic as we are walking to the next ride. “Andy saw something special in you and that sparkle in your eyes.” Vic said back to me with a smile. There a lot of people at the park and I feel my social anxiety flare up a little bit so I got a little closer to Andy and tried to hide myself a little bit. Some girls recognize Jack and Alex and ask for some pictures. Alex didn’t look so hot after we came off the coaster and confessed that going on that ride with a hangover probably was not the smartest idea. Alex had his acoustic guitar with him and a few of the girls asked if he would play a few songs after we were done with the bumper cars. We are going to meet them by the gazebo after we get off the ride. All the guys get their own car and get as close to one another as possible and we are off! All the swear words in the book are said as they ram into each other and block each other in. Vic, Andy, and Kellin all gang up on me and I am trapped! It was so much fun! The ride stops and we get out of the cars. Andy looks at me and says “Show time baby!” And we took off towards the gazebos. 

June 23, 2016 by Elizabeth Maier

Fallen Angel Fan Fiction Chapter 6

Hey Guys! Im so sorry I have barely posted. I unfortunately have lost my notebook where I put chapter 5. So a quick rundown on what happens is this.

Jen meets Andy on the way to go watch Of Mice and Men and Andy invites Jen to watch backstage with him. Andy grabs Jen an all access pass and gives her the best day of her life and months to come! Chapter 6 picks up here! Enjoy!

 

Chapter 6: Shadow Moses

Austin walked off stage after they finished with playing “Would you still be there” “WOW you guys were AMAZING!” I squealed. “Jen, this is Alan” Austin said. Oh ym goodness its Alan Ashby!!! Lead vocalist and a beautiful ginger haired mess. “Whats up? Nice to meet you” Alan said. “Hi!” I said as I flushed red. “You know its ok if you get excited being around us. We understand you love us and our music” Andy said and smiled. “You don’t have to pretend to act all cool, I mean hell! We even get excited when we meet our idols that we grew up listening to.” Andy continued on to say. “I just don’t want to seem like other fan girls” I replied. “Well guys and gal we have one hour before Bring Me The Horizon takes the stage, how about we all go back to our bus and chill out?” Austin said. My eyes widened and I looked at Andy then Austin with a huge grin on my face. So we took a small walk along a line of busses. I just could not wipe the smile off my face. I enjoyed the walk and took it all in. We walk into their bus and it looks like your regular RV type of bus. But with guitars all over, an XBOX and a living room with a TV. A kitchenette  but a sink full of liquor bottles. “Party central huh?” I said. “I guess you can say that haha, sit down make yourself at home. You play Call of Duty?” Austin said. “sorry I don’t play video games” I replied back. “you’ll learn” Andy said and grinned. The guys sat down and grabbed the remote controllers and sit down on the couches. I found a seat in a bean bag chair and then I found myself drifting off into a deep sleep.

Andy’s POV

“Man she is beautiful” I sighed. I watch Jen as she is sleeping in the big bean bag chair. “I just saw here in the crowd walking towards me. She looked nervous she looked like she was lost. She got right in front of me and just looked at me. She didn’t scream in excitement or anything. She just smiled at me. Everybody around me I didn’t even see, I was so focused on her.”I said. “Wow she’s gotten to you that much already?” Austin said in kind of a surprised tone. “Why get attached to her when after today you’re never going to see here again?”Austin said after a long pause. “Well…” I started. “Im going to ask her to come with us. I want to help save her from her past. I want to give her a new start.” I replied. “Damn she went through hell” As Austin looked over at Jen noticing her scars all over her legs and arms. “I wonder what could have been so bad.” he said. “I want to find that out myself too” I said. All of a sudden there was a knock on the bus door. Oli walks through the door. “Hey Austin, can we borrow a guitar for our set?” “Yeah no problem. Make your pick”, as he made a gesture to all the guitars laying around the bus. “Who’s the brunette?” Oli asked. “Her name is Jen” I said with a smile on my face because I couldn’t stop looking at her. “Andy found a new girlfriend” Austin said mocking me a little bit. “Andy wants to bring her on the rest of the tour with all of us.” Austin continued on to say. “Why would you think you could get away with that? She most likely has a family back home!” Oli said to me in almost a disappointed parent tone of voice. “Look in her backpack its full of clothes, a toothbrush, money, a few pictures. This clearly looks like she wasn’t planning on going back home.” I said in a defensive tone. “Oh shit man. It looks like the poor girl has been through hell.” Oli said in a real sympathetic tone. He grabbed a guitar and a beer out of the fridge and said “see ya blokes back stage”As the rest of the guys got up and turned the TV off I walked over to the chair where Jen slept and gently rubbed her arm. “Oh…hey…” she said. “Did an hour go by so quickly?” “Yeah” I said. “You can stay here and sleep if you are tired and want to rest up or you can come with me to watch Bring Me The Horizon” I said  because she looked so peaceful I didn’t want to make her do anything that she maybe not would have wanted to do. She said “Lets get going I wouldn’t miss them even if I had one hour of sleep in twenty four hours.” I helped her up and we left the bus. 

June 22, 2016 by Elizabeth Maier